Mile

Hey,
I'd like to talk about the 1600 meter event in a track meet, considering I just ran it today. I'm not the best at it right now, since I'm still improving as a runner, but today I ran 5:17 which is almost a Personal Record for me. I'm happy with it, and I really think I can get a lot better, considering the season is just starting.

I really enjoy running as a sport. I know that may sound ridiculous, but it is actually quite enjoyable if you get into it. Runners are great and nice people, and running is such an easy way to get into shape. :D

Preparations

Hey,
I always hate it when, a week before something big is going to happen, I start freaking out that I'm going to mess up horribly. This makes me prepare a lot, more than I realize, and it makes me a lot better at it. So in reality, freaking out is good because it gets me to prepare more for the thing, but it makes me so worried in the process. I'm not sure if it's worth it in the end. :D

Death and the Maiden

Hey,

I was just meandering around YouTube, and I remembered this song that I really, really liked, and it's called 'Death and the Maiden Quartet' and it's by Schubert. It just sounds so, I guess, Skyrim-ish that I like it so much. It has that Viking-like feel to it that makes it really fun to listen to.

I adore the Skyrim soundtrack, and this song was, I bet, some inspiration to someone who took part in the composing of Skyrim. The best part about it, though, is that it doesn't always stay in that intense part. I guess that's why it's called 'Death and the Maiden.' It sort of continuously switches between the calm and intense parts, displaying the peacefulness of the Maiden and the fury of Death. I don't know, that's just my amateur observation. :D

By the way, here's a link to the piece on YouTube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z42GrmR4U2Y

What You Cannot Change

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I love finding out new things that I hadn't heard of before. One of these things has been the Buddhist idea of non-attachment. Now, I've known that the Buddhist idea of peace is removing all worldly attachment, but I never knew how to go through with it. The idea is to realize that there are things in this world that you cannot change. You must know that you cannot change these things and be serene in accepting whatever happens.

I am one who has overly-high amounts of anxiety. With this idea, I can kind of ignore the anxiety and actually try to enjoy life a. bit more. I bet when I do this more an more, I will stop worrying nearly as much. Let's hope. :D

Memories

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I was just thinking about things that have happened to me in the past, and I realized something. Memories can be either really great or really, really terrible. You can be thinking about awards you won in the past, and that can just escalate into something horrifically embarrassing or painful.

That's the problem, but in the problem lies the solution. Memories aren't there to hurt you; they're there to make you a better person. You can use bad memories and tell yourself, "I will never do something like that again." I am always hard on myself when I remember something I did wrong, but I have to learn that nothing will come from being hard on myself. I have to pick up the pieces and put myself together as a stronger person. :D

Tanka Poem

Hey,
So a few nights ago I woke up in the middle of the night and had just thought of a poem to write that came up in my head. Here it is:

Clouds collide with sand
Producing a massive end
Greater than all time
Space collapsed dust in the wind
Where did you go? Where are you?

I know it is terrible, but this is the things that I come up with when I am half-conscious

Scheming

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I hate whenever I start to scheme. What does that mean, you ask? Well, it's when I'm brooding about something or someone that's bothering me at the moment, and when I have a lot of free time, I start to think 'how will this situation play out' and 'how can I react to the possibilities of the situation.' As I think about it, my mind and body start to feel sick, and I know why this is.

Time and time again, I hear a saying along the lines of, 'ignore bad thoughts and feed good thoughts.' You see, as I think more and more about the bad thoughts, I start to think that I'm less and less of a good person. My worries start to mount, and it's very difficult to get out of that funk. The best thing to do, then, is to not start scheming in the first place. Then, I can be happy and be much more productive. :D

Dreams

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I was just listening to the radio, and two different songs came on in quick succession, both involving dreams. That got me thinking about dreams, both dreams during sleep and dreams in life. Both can be unrealistic or downright impossible, but a lot of them can happen if you try. That's why they're both called dreams, considering their similarities. :D

Screaming Spanish

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Do you what is the one thing that I dislike more than a lot of things? Rosetta Stone for school. Now, if I did it on my own time and if I were actually learning something new when I did it, I would be happy. But since I know pretty much everything that it's trying to teach me and I am always cramming it in so I can get a good grade for completion, it ruins all fun in it. I just end up getting frustrated with having to stay up too late to do stupid things like matching and speaking, when I already know everything that it shows. Maybe one day I'll figure out that it really helped me, but I'm not really sure of that :D

Seasons

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It kind of throws me off to think that it's still winter and it's so warm outside. I mean really, it's February and it's 70 degrees outside. With things like this, it's hard for me to say what my favorite season is, but if I would have to choose, it would probably be spring, just because where I live, it's warm, but it hasn't become too humid by that point. When summer comes around, it gets extremely humid and uncomfortable. Conclusion: I can't wait for spring. :D

Night and Day

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It seems like, for me, night time is when my creativity shines, but day is when I am most able at school-related tasks. Take today for example. This morning, I had trouble with starting to write my early post, but when I got to class, I was able to learn easily. After school, like right now, I don't want to stop writing, but I am also sort of incapacitated from doing schoolwork just for the sheer fact that I don't want to.
I'm not sure why I am like I am, in this regard or in any regard, but it's of no consequence how I work, as long as I get the work done. :D

Quote?

Hey,

Look at this quote:

"I allow the power of love to enrich my life. I am LOVE. I am POWER. I am RICH."

I just had this quote sent to me by one of my friends and I asked him what he meant and he wouldn't tell me what it means. Obviously it has some extremely profound meaning, but, for the life of me, I can't comprehend what it means. Maybe, with love I have power and am rich in love? But then again, that really doesn't make too much sense. I probably shouldn't read too much in it, I should just take it as a comforting sign of the power of love. 

:D

Harmony

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I sometimes find it hard to make everyone feel happy, and although it's actually impossible, I think that it's better to try then to not try. I just start my days with the idea that I will try to help people when they need it, and when I do that, it's a whole lot easier to please people. Now, I do have a problem with telling people things that were supposed to be secrets, but that's just something I have to work on.

Today, I accidentally said something to some that I wasn't supposed to, but I was able to recognize my mistake and patch it up before there was any immediate backlash. I'm hoping for the best and I hope that everyone can be in harmony at the end of whatever happens.
:D

Two Songs

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I was just thinking, and there always seems to be one of two songs stuck in my head at all times: either Otherside by RHCP, or In The Hall Of The Mountain Kind by Grieg. I know these are two completely random songs, but I have probably actually listened to both of these songs a combined total of over a hundred times. I just really like these two songs. :D

Glad

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I'd just like to say how happy I am to be back to blogging again. It really makes me feel better when I can express myself this openly. Over the past few months, I've grown to realize that it doesn't matter what others think about you, as long as your happy and as long as there are other people who are happy because of you.
:D

Clash of Clans

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Well, there's this new game, well, I guess not brand-new, but kind of new, for the iPad called Clash of Clans, and it's REALLY FUN. I mean, I never liked the whole pay for everything idea that many 'free' iPad games do, but the only thing that I would fathom buying gems for is to get a new builder, but even then, I like that only so many things can be built at once. If you've never played it, you should definitely check it out, I am glad that I found it. :D

Feel Like It

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I really just feel like writing right now, so I'm going to do it!
Let's think, what did I do last week?
Well, for one thing, I played a lot of Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Sky. It's a funny story why I'm playing that so much lately. I had gotten the game when it was first released, and I beat the game within a week, which is a wonder, considering I rarely beat games. I just really liked the game. Well, time went on, and one day, when I was looking for the game, it wasn't where I left it, and I couldn't find it. I looked and looked and looked, but alas, I was never able to find it again. :(
That was two or three years ago. Now on this Christmas, I thought, "How about I get PMD: Explorers of Sky, since I liked it so much?" I said "Yep!" and I got a used copy, which was cheaper than what I had gotten it for in the first place. As soon as I received it, I started playing it sporadically, and now that I have had more time, I've been playing it close to constantly. I am now in the Northern Desert, and if I am not mistaken, the Crystal Cave area is close by, which was one of my favorite places when I played it last time.
That's all I really have to say. For now, at least :D

Theme

As the title of the blog obviously suggests, I do not have a theme for this blog. There is no overarching thread that holds these posts together, except that they're about my life. I guess that isn't a big deal. I mean, if it's for my own good, then what's it matter if there's any sense to what I write. asjdkg;aosehtf;iowj4aeiosfpdjkl.
See, as long as I'm writing my thoughts and I'm staying true to myself, well, nothing else matters.

Eternity

Hey,
I realize I haven't been on in what seems like forever, but maybe, just maybe, this blog is something that I want to start up again. I know I wasn't on much even when I was making posts, but I think it's good just to write every now and then. :)